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I spent my entire day at bored.com. hah. now im sitting here wide awake. its midnight. theres nothing to do. i dont want to go to sleep. the breeze from my window feels so nice. i want james to call me. he is eating ice cream at rams horn. previa just came in here and got some stuff. i hope she is gone for the night. i have the longest periods ever. and ive had a bad stomach ache today, it wont stop gurgling. the people here at svsu are so noisy. they were chanting something for a good five minutes a little bit ago. i couldnt make out what it was. our air conditioner isnt an air conditioner any more. it has turned into a heater. someone was just knocking on the door. im not getting up to answer it. i know they are not here for me. im angry that i have to pay another parking ticket. and im even angrier they send a letter to my house. people are constantly running up and down the hall way. it gets annoying. i probably wouldnt be so annoyed by everyone if i had someone here to hang out with too. this whole being lonely away at college thing is starting to get to me. i feel like im living under a rock. the only time i enjoy myself is when im with james. i couldnt tell you the last time i ran around and had fun with friends. im just talking. theres no need to pay any attention to this. its just my period making me irritable. the kind of weather we have now is the kind of weather that makes me miss cool breeze. sitting in there with maybe one customer a night. but i was able to read lots of books. and have all the hot chocolate and ice cream i wanted. a funnel cake sounds amazing right now.. with cherry topping.. MmmMmMMm! someone is outside talking like a hillbilly. maybe i shouldnt say that. he could actually be a hillbilly. my grandfather just signed off of AIM and it chirped like a bird. my heart is racing. it starttled me. i think its silly grandpa has a screenname. so does grandma helen. i talk to her sometimes on it. its silly. she makes me laugh. i want her to make me an apple pie. and i want grandma chizmadia to make her potatoe soup. ahh i love the fall. i just watched buffalo 66. vincent gallo is beautiful. i was trying to find the brown bunny online but i could not find it. and then i tried to watch the wristcutters movie but it was removed from this stupid blogging site. thanks blogger. im so hungry. i have so little money. its sad. i think this is the longest journal entry ever posted by me. i have had an apple every day this week. i think thats more apples than i have ever had in my life. i was mad when amy told me she had presents for me and all i got was a bag full of apples. i dont know why i was mad tho. i thank her now. the apples were very tastey. im still not tired. and i have been sitting here typing for ten minutes. wow. i want to rearrange this room. but theres no way to do it. it makes me angry. i wish i were living in the appartments that they have for the people who are not freshman. but i guess that wouldnt work out very well because well, i am a freshman. and i do not believe i am coming here next year so i will never be living in one. i would like to move out of my house tho. i dont see that happening anytime soon however. i have no money. but if i stay at home next year i know i will go crazy living in my house. i want mexican food real bad right now. i also just want to spend all my time with james. there is no reason not to be happy while i am around him. i miss so many things right now and i could go on and on and on talking about them. i think my exepectations for saginaw were way too high. at least for the people i would be meeting here. the classes are wonderful. people are not very friendly. i want more pillows for my bed. i also wish i did not have to share everything with someone that makes me so uncomfortable. i would rather be alone in this room. my period makes me soo sad. apparently if there is a bird in your house it means there was a death. that sad. ive had birds in my house, however i dont think it counts. they were pet birds not wild birds. i remember going over to my grandma and grandpas... my mommas dad and his wifes.. and they had soo many birds. and they would let them run wild. fly wild i should say. and every time you walked into their house the bords would swoop down at you. it always scared the shit out of me. i also remember one time while they werre here visiting from florida. and they were staying at the red roof in. who knows what they were on but while we were there visiting them they had us run around and around and around the balcony of the building. and they never got tired. they are living very sad lives. it makes me sad thinking about them. they had the funnest dogs tho. i dont remember their names. but they were so small and friendly. they were the kind of dogs you would think a grandma and grandpa would have. its 12:25 and im still not tired. i need something new to do. i would read wicked but i have a headache and it never seams to go away. i want a surprise. from someone. any one. that would make me the happiest. what i would really like would be a letter in my mail box the next time i go and open it. i get so sad everytime i open it and its empty. i have not talked to my momma since well i was home on sunday. no i lied. i called her two days ago to say hi and she was quiet and didnt say a word so i hung up with her. i dont understand her sometimes. it makes me so angry. i talked to my little brother thought. hes down to seventeen minutes and something on his races. thats awesome and i am so proud of him. im excited to come home in a few weeks to see him run. i havent talked to my father since sunday either. i feel bad for him. andrews always making him angry. as if he doesnt have enough things to worry about right now. i wish i could get tired so i could lay down and go to sleep. tomorrow is going to be the longest day. i have absolutely nothing to do. and i cleaned the room today so there will be no cleaning. i suppose i could lay down and try and fall asleep. i think ive written enough. thank you period.