" I dont want to start thinking again. Not like i have this last week. I cant think again. Not ever again. I dont know if youve ever felt like that. That you wanted to sleep for a thousand years. Or just not exist. Or just not be aware that you do exist. Or something like that. I think wanting that is very morbid, but i want it when i get like this. Thats why im trying not to think. I just want it all to stop spinning."

hmph.

uhm.